Fruition

I was given the word “fruition” for 2019.

Fruition means – The realization or fulfillment of a plan or project. The state or action of producing fruit.

I immediately got excited because there have been so many things in the works, so many big prayers I have prayed and I was feeling like things are FINALLY going to come together. I felt like I have been a gardener for the past 4 years, tilling the ground, up rooting weeds, scaring away animals that would try to steal the seeds I have planted and waiting for a harvest.

So. Much. Waiting.

In fact, I feel like I have spent more time working and waiting then seeing with my natural eyes the fruit of my labor. When I received this word I thought, “now, now it’s finally time.” And here we are five months later…still working and waiting.

At times discouragement has set in, I wondered if maybe I heard God wrong. Maybe this wasn’t the word for 2019 maybe it was for 2020. I would go back through journals and re read the promises I felt God had given to me years ago that I was still waiting to manifest. One in particular was one of those “impossible” promises. I believed God told me that the land we would build TVF on would be donated. I didn’t know how and I didn’t know who but I was believing it. Year one…no land. Year two…no land. Year three…no land. Year four…God split the sea and out of the blue we were contacted by this lovely family who wanted to DONATE the land to us.

I’m not going to lie. I was VERY apprehensive to celebrate this because we had been made promises before and every single one of them fell through. Each one hurting more than the one before. I didn’t believe it until I was signing my name on the dotted line and held a promise in my hand that had been spoken years earlier. This was a “exceedingly, abundantly, more than I could ever ask think or imagine” type of miracle. I got to see God move in a way that was new for me. I got to see the God of fruition.

There are so many more promises that I am standing on, and it may take longer then I allowed in my human timeline but I have learned if I have to manipulate or force it to happen it will always fall short of God’s best for that thing.

Also, I have learned that I may not be able to SEE all of the fruit tangibly but I can say with all honesty that I am a different person then when I began on this journey. He has produced in me the fruit of long suffering, patience, kindness, a new level of love I didn’t know I possessed for the marginalized and less fortunate. I have learned to trust in a new way. I have learned how to lead a team. I have learned how to be creative and innovative when our bank account had less funds then we needed. The fruit that can’t be stolen has been produced INSIDE of me first and I believe that was necessary for me to steward well the tangible promises He has made to me.

So, while I wait I know that He is doing a work in me and i submit to that process because of the big things He has in store.

What are you waiting for?

How has God moved in your life?

What promises have been fulfilled?

How has God changed you on the INSIDE while you wait for the promises?

Do not be discouraged while you wait, have faith that He doesn’t break promises.